On Our Way

Well, a lot has happened since last weekend! The trip to and from SC wasn't too bad. Dick and I talked and it seems he is in the same boat as me. NO WE ARE NOT GETTING BACK TOGETHER!!! It was just nice to be able to talk to him with out fighting! I was able to spend some extra time with Josh, but of course the entire ride "home" was full of fighting from Rick. I was not looking forward to coming back at all. Well, I went to work Monday morning at my new job that I was so excited about.. turns out the chick is CRAZY!!! The place had no heat, not a stitch of furniture and get this... she has no message therapists!! So, once I got home I made a phone call to SIP and I started back there Tuesday night. I love it there! I was going to do my normal shifts like I did before then I thought I would work 3 day shifts a week at Sip and then 2 day shifts at the spa, so I called Annie and told her and was supposed to go into the Spa on Thursday and Friday guess what? She cancelled on me??!! What is that about? Oh well, now I am thinking that I will try and clean a couple of houses a week and then I should be good. I am sure that Foster will let me work a Saturday or something. Then the kids and I went and looked at the house on 20. It's nice but after much thought and PRAYER I decided that it was just too much money, and really too big for us. So I went back to looking and turns out the house in Ballground is still available. It's only 2 bedrooms, but its brand new and beautiful! After a week of being alone again, I borrowed money from Foster (I just love him) and put the deposit down on the house today!!!! We move in the 15th of this month, if not before. I did my income tax and am getting back a couple thousand so as soon as I get that, I will pay the first month's rent, get everything turned on and then we are out of here!! I am actually getting a car too!!! Lauren's dad bought her a stick that she can't drive so he is going to let me make payments to him!!! And the house is total electric so no gas bill which will save me another 100 bucks a month, plus I don't have to pay 450 for a car (can probably pay as little as 200) so we will be just fine. I just need to find a fridge, washer/dryer and furniture.. I am sure that Rick isn't going to let me take anything, we may be lucky to get out of here with Chelsea's TV, but I am not expecting him to take this easily. So, thrift store here we go.. We will have to get a cooler for milk and tea, and sleep on the floor for a while, but we will be ok. We are going to make this happen and we are going to be happy and relaxed! I hope.. I just hate that I have to be alone. I do love Rick very much but he hurts me so bad and he hurts my kids.. He doesn't treat them like they are his he has NO RESPECT for me at all. So I deserve to be happy, it just sucks that he wasn't anything that he said he was. I mean I expected to be taken care of financially and emotionally, that's what he promised me and he hasn't given me any of that!!! I am not sure when I am going to tell him or how.. and I'm not sure what type of reaction I am going to get. I am expecting the worst. So we will see. It's funny because he only talks to me when he needs something, and I am so sick of that. I want to be treated like a wife, like a friend I just don't think that will ever happen with him. Or Suz was sooo happy for me. I thought she was going to cry. She has been sick all week, so I haven't spoken to her except to check on her so I filled her in on everything and I really thought she was going to cry. Here we go.. Apparently Rick has sold his 4 wheeler and needs a truck, so he is asking me if I can call Suz and see if she will let us borrow it.. What a freaking self absorbed, self centered ass whole!!!! Oh, and btw the cell phones got turned off for a couple of hours this week, guess he "forgot" to pay it.. I can't wait to be able to do my own thing worrying only about me and my babies and can just relax!!!! Well, I will keep this thing posted as much as I can not really sure if he is going to let me even take the laptop.. We shall see...